-YOU LIED-

MY ONLY FOREVER BAOBAO
You once promised not to let me suffer anymore for my past experience. But you broke ur promises and LIED. Instead i am suffering more. it jus can't help that i had falls deeply on you. i hope that it can return back to the time when we were happily. Make myself wake up from the nightmare.
But i know everything was true. I cant twist anything now..we're going on with our own ways. i have to accept everything.
i give you all my best wishes in everything you've decide. as well as you n her together.
she may not be like me,tat will listen to what u asked me to do.Eg: help u take this n there.. but at least she can help u out with more important things.
Cherish what u have now. once lost you don regret it.
Rmb BAOBAO, dn regret on what you've decide now.. it wont be the same after sometimes later. everyone will change, so am BEIBEI..
Take good care of yourself please. rest assured that i will take care of myself..

YOUR FOREVER *BEIEBI*

what will happen after 6months of our promises?

Baobao,
I am not strong enuff to let things go on naturally without being unreasonable and more understanding. As i know i love u soo much that i dunno whats my mind was thinking. i hope i can take it nothing happen and after 6months we'll be back to normal. but 6months isn't a short period like 1month. i know you have your difficulty on handling this in peace. and yet am putting more pressure and stress on you. I AM REALLY SORRY. you've done lot of things is for the sake of making me more comfortable and happy.But my stubborness naturally disrupted you.
i keep telling myself, if beibei really love you, why can't i be more understanding and just simply let you done with all your crisis. i have though throught deeply now, AM SoRRY for what i've created n causes all the unusual headache to you for the past few days. i will bare with it and support in whatever you do. Accompany you go through with all the hardship. Lets us look forward after 6months for our peace R/S.
BeiBei

when will you treasure me!!

Stop touturing me please baobao. i really had enough of hurts n pains created by you. i really needs a fresh air for me to breath. If you have choose her over me, pls pls pls, leave me alone then. i hate having the false hope given from you. in the end, i got nothing. isn't it too unfair for me? As a couple, we must treasure every moment we have and not treating it as a trash. What or who am i to you? yes indeed we regards each other as baobao n beibei, but is that really what u meant? if not, i hope we can stop calling each other that again..In a R/S, everything must be equally. why you can choose not to ANSWER my calls n REPLY my msges, and i cant? my every whereabout you must know beforehand. i am enduring your attitude/bad temper towards me everytime. did i vent back at you?once i have your missed call and it will be thats it. and do you know how many missed call you have when you were away!! neither you return call nor send a single msg. i have been waiting for ur number to appear every min, hold on to my fone where ever i went to and See whether is there any call i never answer. why? why am i treating myself like this? cant i jus have a peace day? Its really torturing me!! Arhggggg!!!!! ARHGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Pls put urself into my shoe. how will you feel? what will you do? i am sure you'll just simply left and not contacting me anymore even if i call. but each time am got treated like this, did i nv ans your call? did i leave you? somehow i felt am too foolish. why i wanna made my life upside down!! emotionally my actions and feels just do it.i have been waited your call since yesterday till now. I suppose u have more than 20missed call from me. but..... am still waiting n waiting.........I keep telling myself not to call or text you. and when you call, i wont answer. but i cant... i still called you. And got disappointment again.Did you show anything to let me rest assure? did you bother to?? yes you did, by not answering and replying my msg..i am extremely tired and depressed. Pls stop all this. there's still a option for you. either to stop everything or stay as a couple should be.. i really miss you now as well as the pains..28/03/085.05pm

Had been age of months since i last update.. life for me was pretty bad till 2/3/08.. cause finally both of us' ve came to an promises with same conditions. That make our conversations end with peace. we made the same mistakes and to forgive each other once again. trying hard to make our r/s worth more than everything. Our r/s came with a torturing romance period for us. God was testing us, to see how we go thru the hardship together and never give up. most of the time we're telling ourself not to suffer again n again as it hurts alot. but i jus simply went back to him again. bless us go thru this peacefully and live our days happily. i am waiting for 1/4/08 . so that i wil be able to go a.m.k.. promises are made to keep, not to be broken. Wont intentionally find ourself troubles again. Simple life i am having now, work, watch movie, eat, chat with baobao.. after that went hme. weekend bring my precious back stay with me. that's not bored at all. cause he's still here with me. i just want this simple life will do.

I am Hurts

My first time writting a blog, was thinking that maybe i shld haf throw all my unhappy things here.
it had been a month since he left me. i have been suffering for tis time and was unable to have a gd sleep at all. Thou we still contact everyday but the feels were different frm how we used to be. He wants me to change my everythings. Is pretty hard to. but am trying. What i promised him, i have done it. But that's still no news from him. Struggling myself everydays to smile and pretented nothing on me. In fact i have changed myself into a different person now. eventually i wld haf do sumthing stupid. Thanks to my frens, that always accompany, encourage, persuade and console me. if there's no you, i wont be here anymore.
He'll be the first and last person that i would haf committed so deep.. He may be more relieve and enjoying himself now without me. I am really tired of asking you back again and always got rejected. I need your love, care and concern without conditions. Cant our love be unconditional...